Alongside my writing, I’ve been studying and learning graphic art, mainly 3D modeling for games and animation. I started only a few months ago, but I’ve been making some steady progress on learning the program and how to use it. As it’s considered a trade, I’ve been working on my own game projects as a way to extend my storytelling and art. I was so close to going from one stage of production to the next, and then the program updated–and because of my own failure to back up my files, I lost my work. Months worth of it, corrupted in an instant.I won’t lie, it grieved me a bit, but I didn’t react as loudly or tearfully as I expected. It’s easy to react in such ways. In that moment, I just sat there, barely processing the loss. It wasn’t long before I asked myself “why do I even bother?” It didn’t take me long to answer.I have the

Alongside my writing, I’ve been studying and learning graphic art, mainly 3D modeling for games and animation. I started only a few months ago, but I’ve been making some steady progress on learning the program and how to use it. As it’s considered a trade, I’ve been working on my own game projects as a way to extend my storytelling and art. I was so close from going from one stage of production to the next, and then the program updated–and because of my own failure to back up my files, I lost my work. Months worth of it, corrupted in an instant.I won’t lie, it grieved me a bit, but I didn’t react as loudly or tearfully as I expected myself to. It’s easy to react in such ways. In that moment, I just sat there, barely processing the loss. It wasn’t long before I asked myself “why do I even bother?” It didn’t take me long to answer.I have the strong need to express myself and what goes on in my mind. Whether anyone listens or not doesn’t much matter as I release my emotions and thoughts, turning them into a memory to keep as long as the drafts exist. Granted, I do enjoy having an audience, but that’s not the primary reason or goal in art. The microscopic chance of someone finding my work and cherishing it is a nice drive, but it isn’t the only one. It can be hard to push through the words, but I will not rest until I get them out, whether on paper or in a recording.At this point in my climb, there’s no deadline and there are no set of rules. Other writers may try to tell me how I should write, but I notice these same people turn around and ponder the vivid imagination of a child. One thing I remember as a child is when it comes to art, I made my own rules to follow, if any. Limiting creativity is no way to nurture it, and that’s why I branched out into another form of media besides the one I started out with.So, I simply took a bite from my pizza, and told myself “we’ll just have to start it all over.” I continue because the drive is stronger than the setback. Who knows, maybe this time around I’ll come out even better.